Call Me Crazy……

But I decided that I would go through all the classes and take them through both KotFE an KotET only because I wanted to see certain things for each class, but I’m not taking all the ones I’ve already walked through KotFE with. Nope, I started too, but with way gearing was changed, how things were changed in their combats and etc. I decided to start fresh, I had a few characters over on the Begeren Colony that never made it past level 20, I had stopped playing there and walked away, so I went back to that server, deleted them after robbing them all blind of their credits, and started again with a new set of characters. First up to make it all the way through of course was my Republic Trooper Jasarein Ryder. I reversed her name from my main on Ebon Hawk from Reinjasa to Jasarein. I did move one character over from Ebon Hawk with a ton of credits, and all the stronghold unlocks, so now I have all 5 strongholds on Begeren as well. I did that so I could give each one a unique home to live in. This time Jasarein took the Yavin-4 SH and is currently working on it and how I want it to set up for the Republic Trooper to live. Vhaem Ojers who is currently coming through her main story as a Merc Bounty Hunter is taking Tatooine for her stronghold a Mando style stronghold is what I’m going to work with for her. I have decided this time I was going to do all the non force users first to get their stories out of the way and what not.

Of course as like with Rein, I decided I was going to romance Aric again on Jasa, only cause it seemed fitting. While so many are wanting to romance the newer companions I am still quite fond of some of the originals like Aric for instances. Now it took me roughly 3-4 days to get her to level 70, and into the CXP grind, and through all the stories that now I am going back to finish up some things I didn’t with her once I hit the ability to jump from RotHC, SOR, Ziost, and then into KotFE and then off to KotET. The other thing I wanted to point out too is that well before Jasa had hit KotFE I had already gotten Aric up to rank 35 in influence with my companions. I did that by using the 3 unlocks in the character perks system of my legacy, even though I rarely gave him any gifts most of his approvals came from the stories that I had played out with him.

 

I have no idea why I decided I was going to do this challenge for myself, only because I had gotten use how to play certain classes before 5.0 dropped that now I am wanting to relearn them from the beginning so that I know which was changed and what wasn’t. I hate having to use old characters to relearn anything, but I have them now as my crafters on the Ebon Hawk server, and I plan on taking some of the newer ones on Begeren and making them into crafters as well. One thing I did notice for Trayvae on the Ebon Hawk server is that I no problems getting Schematics from the CXP Grind crates. As for guilds well Jasa remains free from guilds and that is a good thing I did receive one invite to one without even being asked if I wanted to join it, and I declined it instantly as no information was given, and I didn’t care for the title of it. I understand people want one gender only type guilds, but in all honesty if they are saying “The badgirls Guild” or something along those lines. Doesn’t mean that women are actually playing women characters. I know a lot of males that play women characters and their thinking is like mine along those lines, if you’re going to be playing a character a lot to get them to level up and etc. If you are a male, you don’t wanna see a males ass all day long, so they opt to play females, and the same goes for some women, we don’t wanna see a woman’s ass day long, so we opt to play a male, but I generally play both cause I am a tomboy, and it’s easy for me to switch demeanor of being an all out girly girl, to a full fledged get in your face and knock you on your ass type attitude for me. I have also decided that all my classes will always be DPS, it’s not that I don’t want to learn how to be a healer or a tank, but I’m not looking for added pressure either in a game I just come in to play on my own time, and do things my way, and not get yelled at for it either. Tanks get a lot of heat, same with healers if you’re not up to par for the task, so yeah I’ll stick to just being a DPS fighter since it’s a comfortable zone for me and I enjoy it a lot more, since I make my companions into tanks all the time and I don’t have to worry to much about their health.

The Star Wars Universe is forever changed.

This year was not a good year in the star wars universe with the loss of both Kenny Baker who played R2-D2 and then with the recent death of Carrie Fisher. I was one of the fortunate ones that had seen more movies with Carrie Fisher then just Star Wars. I also heard her speak out a lot about being Bipolar, and for those that do not know Bipolar is a mental health issue that so many people suffer. I speak from experience as well on that. She made it very easy for me to learn more about my mental health issues that I have. She also gave me hope that I could be anything I wanted with being a woman, and having a mental health issue.

I was and still am a HUGE fan of R2-D2, I think it all went back to my love for Battlestar Galactica’s Cylon and their moving red lazer in the mask. It was also then that I learned there was two factions for that series as well. So yeah you can say I found a love for no talking robots way before I was introduced to Star Wars, but none the less it helped me become a huge fan of Star Wars, and even though I have never went overboard with owning toys and what not from any of the movies, well minus the Battlestar Galactia I did own a Cylon that you had to manually move the lazer red eye from side to side. But while many are still mourning the loss of these two talented people I have decided to move on in life, and honor them in my own special way. I didn’t break down and cry, or say anything about their deaths until I decided to write this blog post. I won’t go out of my way to create game characters honoring their names, and etc. as for me it’s just pointless when so many already hump the hell out of that band wagon. I will honor their memories and etc. by being myself, and not pretending to be something else. For they were a true mark on the lives of so many of us that grew up with the original Saga for Star Wars, then the later prequels that led up to 4,5 and 6, and now that 7 is out. I’m not sure how Star Wars will move on in the movies with their Alliance Leader Leia at the helm, but I can’t wait to see how they do it. I hope it will be for something of the ages to come.

With the loss of life, there is always a birth taking its place. So on those days that are beloved star wars characters were taken from us, a new life began for special children. So that may not make a lot of sense to some, but that is how life is. We must accept it and move on. Doesn’t mean to stop caring and mourning those we’ve lost, but it just means that their time was done here on Earth, and they have moved onto bigger and better things. They no longer suffer as they have over the years, but they now can watch down on all of us from the stars, and watch how we interact with each other. To understand anything life, you must first accept that death will happened eventually. I was told that in order to understand life, you must first accept that death will come knocking on your door one day, and if you do not fear death, you can begin to understand life. I still believe in that to this day. So while I’m sadden about all the losses of life this year. I understood that their time was up, and it was time for something greater to happen to them. Don’t think this post is just a post to shame their deaths. It’s not, It was meant for a place to express some heart felt ideologies I have had for a very long time. So while their bodies have expired, their spirits are still with us, and looking over us, and watching as we move forward in our lives. So may the force be with you, and may the happiness these two brought to us over the big screen continue to improve our lives on a daily basis. Thank you for reading this post if you do.

Some huge changes…..

I have brought my main back into SWTOR and started using him again. I’m taking my time going through the chapters of KotET this time. I’ve also begun to do some Galactic Command Grind. On another note as well the guild I helped Co-found has welcomed me back into the fold as well. So Trayvae is home. I didn’t leave the guild because of anything bad. It’s just I was pulling away from everything. SWTOR itself, and I went on a break and would play here and there, but wasn’t really logging in the hours like I did in the past. I guess you can say after KotFE I was officially burned out totally. Plus being bored, I just couldn’t find it in me to stay playing at the time. Even though I did some of the DvL event. I got Heroic, Legacy and Valiant levels done. I was close to doing Eternal but burned out. I only had to get a Imp up to lvl 65, if I would have stayed, I would have asked for help to get the Eternal done, but I wasn’t staying, so I didn’t even bother. Ironically the Imp was only 3 levels away from hitting 65, but I just couldn’t do it anymore, and I just grew tired of SWTOR and wanted to walk away, so I did. On the Ebon Hawk server I went from 20+ alts down to I believe 15-16, I deleted a lot of the ones I no longer had a desire to keep around, only after robbing them of their credits, and stuff they had that wasn’t bound to them so that worked out nicely.

I have another issue now and I’m sure many wouldn’t understand it. As you see Trayvae runs around with a Nexu at times, or Kaliyo sometimes. She is married to this agent, even though he was tempted to kill her for screwing things up as usual, but he didn’t. Guess the agent loves the chaos she brings to his life.  But enough about that brat wife of his. The issue I have is a companion fetish. The ones that have been coming in the Cartel packs as of late.

As you can see, I am highly addicted to them. I am missing just the 4, but soon it will only be the 3 because I plan on getting the last one that was released hopefully with some (B-day cash) I’ll probably get from my family and what not in the next week or so. I doubt I’ll ever get the Akk Dog or the Probe Droid as those packs are gone, and prices for them are outta this world, or no one is just selling them because they want not just an arm or leg, but the whole damn body. I think I like these companions more all because they don’t speak during the fights, well minus Treek, but she can be overlooked if you like Ewoks and I sure as hell do. (Sorry for language),

Plus I have an GC Rank of 5 now on Trayvae, and he’s been lucky when opening up the Command Crates, he was able to get his first 230 piece of gear which was a new sniper rifle. I may one day just rip out the mods and put them back into the one I got a while back outta a chance cube. The sniper rifle he got back then was Infiltrator’s Compact Sniper Rifle, so he’s been using that since he kicked Arcanns ass. I am taking my time with Trayvae and going through KotET instead of doing the 12 hour marathon I did with Darrien Ryder my Light Side Jedi Knight who actually saved Senya and Arcann, so now he runs around the republic side with Arcann as his companion.

He didn’t rule on the dark side at all when I went through with him, I made it strictly Light Side only and choose to save both Senya and Arcann in KotFE and in KotET. So yeah he is my main over on the Republic Side at Ebon Hawk Server. He is guild-less and I probably will keep him that way. He has gotten some unique pets from the Command Crates as well. But at the moment I am working on maxing out my crafters yet again. I still have them, and most are half way through KotFE , but I doubt I’ll take them all the way through it. Even my Trooper is not done in KotFE and I doubt I will finish taking her through it as well. Same with my Smuggler, he got his Wookie back and I stopped going through. The story was good, and all , but I don’t think I wanna take anymore characters through it for a good long while.

Now my main focus is taking Trayvae through KotET all cause I’ve seen the light side, and even though I have watched some YouTube videos about it. I want to experience the Dark Side with Trayvae there. So yeah it will be at a slow pace. Course I bounced between Darrien Ryder, and Trayvae for the Relics of Gree, and I may do some more before the event is over on Tuesday, I’m not trying to do so many things at once on all the names or servers anymore. I’m just sticking to what works for me and at a pace I want. Who knows I may even try my hand at an Uprising or two since I’m getting some good story type gear, course I still need to do Heroic 4 for Shroud on Trayvae just to get the damn thing out of mission long, same with Op for Oricon as well. They’ve been sitting there since he got the quests, and that has been since this past spring I believe. But yeah I’m back home in the guild I once helped start, things are looking up, and I’m back on my main again.

Not really sure about KotET

swtor-icon-silverNo I won’t post spoilers here, but I will say this though. I’m not sure if this was worth the wait in all honesty. I was excited last year when they talked about releasing KotFE and I played the first 9 chapters then there was the wait for a new chapter each month after the beginning of the year, but this one. 9 Chapters and that is it. After playing the 9 chapters on Early access, it took me roughly about 12 hours to go through 1-9 chapters. I didn’t do the usual exploring and what not, because I just wanted to see the end of it all. I’m not entirely sure I want to continue replaying all this for another 7 times. I’m not a hard core end gamer, so I’ll never have the best gear, and I suck at my rotations and with them changing classes and what not, it’s not impossible for me to learn a new one , but still it’s almost like they are forcing you to come out of your comfort zones. They claim to have listened to the players and decided to make all these changes but in all honesty I doubt they really listened to anyone in the gaming community about changes we wanted. I didn’t voice my opinion and as a matter of fact even though I remained subbed through the entire thing is honestly surprising for some because most dropped their subscription when nothing new came out, but I remained with the ability to play when I wanted to play. I think after the end of Chapter 16 in KotFE I rarely logged in at all. I started some of the DvL event they had over the summer, was 2 parts shy of completing the Eternal level, and knowing that I can’t beat the bosses in the Eternal Championship run. I just opted to not even finish it at all. Then there was the 200% XP Boost they gave, and I started to get one last character to max level of 65 before KotET and just stopped playing.

It was odd because I loved playing this game, and even though still I have some favorite classes that I may replay the older content, I just don’t have it in me to really slug through another 7 times for the same stuff. I have the free Outlander token and doubt I’ll even use it, if I do it will be to get the starter gear and toss it into my cargo hold unless it’s BoE then I’m just stuck with it on one character. I watched the live streams, and kept quiet while doing so because I just didn’t feel like I belong in the SWTOR community anymore. I’m not one that has ever done much of anything in SWTOR. I have no operation experience, I don’t really care much for PVP, I just don’t feel like I fit into the community anymore of SWTOR and hence why this blog has been really quiet as of late. I don’t have friends in the game, I don’t belong to any guilds because again I’ve been burnt on the whole guild thing. I have Legacies all across the US Servers where they are maxed on all except two servers that were once strictly PVP ones, and I think I have a few over in the European servers, but I doubt I’ll ever use them. I loved the story for KotFE and I do love the story for KotET but I just can’t see slugging through all the trash fighting again over and over for 7 more times. I will be going through it again just so Blade can see the first few chapters as I started it and he stayed up with me when early access hit so he could see the boss fights and what not , and I only did it on my Light side Jedi Knight who was apart of the whole DvL event. So I have to take a Dark side character through it, and well it will be harder because I’ll probably use my Agent Trayvae who is a sniper, but since snipers are more mobile now I don’t think I’ll have that much of a hard time. I just have to relearn his rotation and the abilities they added, and fix my hot-bars with the ones they have added.

To be quite honest I didn’t game a whole lot this past summer either. I picked up a few games on sale at Steam, played some 7 Days to die, worked on other things, and spent a lot of time watching YouTube videos and interacting in that community that SWTOR in general became a back burner, then I also started spending more time with Raven, and taking her out for walks, and doing things with her, all because well she’s my best friend, even though some don’t understand the relationship one can have with a dog. For me it’s awesome because she relieves a lot of my anxiety and stress, and gives me a ton of emotional support when days are darker then most for me. Plus I had to make sure I had time to give to Blade as well after he was done with work each day, and spent time with him, so that my gaming life basically took a back burner to everything. In the last few months even though I rarely said much of anything. I also had a lot to deal with my Mother going in for a few surgeries and making sure she was okay and all. Last month was a scary month for me because I had almost lost my mother during one of the surgeries, and well it opened up my eyes even more. I may have not the greatest relationship with her, but I am there for her, even though at times I have had to distance myself from the others in the family that feel they are better for her than her own daughter and they are no longer family in my eyes since their father passed away. Plus I have been worrying about my father as well, even though technically my parents are younger than most. My father is almost 62, he will be on Jan 8th, and my mother just hitting 59 on the 13th of November, they have health issues, and being their only child I worry about them both. They have been divorced since April of 1989, so I keep my share of insanity with both of them.

I may do a fully first thoughts post with spoilers later on after everyone has played Knights of the Eternal Throne, but for right now this is just my entire thought process and where I’ve been since KotFE ended, and I ended up on a long extended break from SWTOR in general. Thanks for reading if you do, and sharing it if you do. Just in general Thank you.