On the search yet again

So after a long hard thought and etc. last night I opted to leave the guild I was in , after a month I just couldn’t do it. It wasn’t for me. I want a causal friendly guild that wants to do all content, mostly Story stuff together, some PVP, and etc. My RP days in SWTOR have not been the greatest, and I really no longer care about RPing my character, yes I will create a back story for him, give out detailed information and such, but I won’t be RPing it to death like most want, or wanted me to do. I just want to do what most want to do now, have fun and be in a causal active friendly guild that does content, not get upset and rearrange a Stronghold when things start to look bleak. So I’m back to searching for the guild for me. Of course so many have told me to just make it, but that is where the problem lies for me. I don’t have friends in game that aren’t apart of a guild, and I honestly don’t know them all that well to ask for an invite to their guild.

I love being apart of something like I was, but in the long run when trying to rebuild something and everyone has a different vision of what it is they are looking for, it just doesn’t seem to fit right with anyone. Unlike the guild Trayvae helped Co-found, where everyone left ,and didn’t say a word, or was kicked by the GM because it wasn’t with people he wanted in the guild. So now I’m back on the search on the Ebon Hawk server to find my place in a good casual guild that just wants to have fun and play the game in all aspects. Whether it be Random Flashpoints, PVP, PVE stuff, or just overall goofing around. I am sure I will find my place one day in SWTOR but right now I’m also thinking of doing a let’s play video series for my YouTube channel as well, maybe by doing that I will find the people that want to create a fun , friendly guild where Alts will not be an issue. Only thing I ask if and when that day comes is to log into the alts once in a while. I know some will think of me being a tad picky, but in reality I’m not, I just want to find something to do in game with a lot of people and have fun doing so.

Even got myself some new guns for my healer as well. I am not deleting him, I plan on keeping him, and using him, just not sure where yet. Course each day I do log in and see what the CXP bonus for the day is with him, because before I jump into doing Star Fortresses and what not, I want the level 10 so when it’s  time to jump into the heroics of it , I can do that, plus I want to grind for more alliance crates by doing heroics and etc. I just want to have fun in the game, and while I do love some of the stories and what have you, I just crave more in game now. It’s the whole reason for me taking on different roles, and right now I just want to focus on being a healer, from a Merc down to a Sorc healer, sadly though there aren’t all that many specs for healing, when the time comes I plan on making a new trooper and making them into a healer, since I know that Mercs and Troopers are mirror classes, just like when I do the Operative Healer, I will be replaying through the Smuggler story as I know that is a Mirror class to Agent, and same with Sorc, I will make a healing Sage since I know that is yet another mirror class. I do love the fact that people all over our wonderful community takes the time to write guides for us that don’t know what most of what we’re doing.

 

I don’t want to do solo stuff anymore, yeah sometimes it’s fine, but let’s face it, in a game like SWTOR there is so many more options, and that is what I always thought the joy of being here was. I love the stories, but I also crave more. I don’t want to be that person that just keeps going on and on as a solo player. It gets boring, and lonely at times where I just log out, and go off into a solo style game like my driving simulators. Of course though if I can’t find a guild I like on the Ebon Hawk, I have other servers to try and find that perfect guild for me. The one that just lets us have fun within the game and not demand things. Role playing is not for everyone, and as I have stated in the past, and above. I am no longer really interested in it anymore. Oh well  the hunt will continue for a guild where I fit into it. Until then, happy gaming!!

So I’ve been told

I would hinder my team since I don’t use Grenades in PVP , and for Flashpoints as well. I know some people rely on them and use them like they use their abilities but is it wrong that I refuse to use them in PVP and Flashpoints. I mean I’m unlike some. If I want to know about a certain fight and what have you, I use YouTube to search for a video, or Google to find a written guide on it. I honestly have never used those in either PVP nor Flashpoints, and I find them pretty pathetic in my opinion. If you have to rely on things like that , then you’re really not learning how to use your class abilities and such. I can see if you’ve used all your defenses, and stuns and what not and that is the last thing you have on you, but I’m sorry I know healers put out some damage but our main goal is to keep everyone alive, and I have rarely if ever seen a healer use a damn cyber-tech grenade to help maintain an advantage. So now it has me thinking is this really the right place for me?

First he doesn’t like the gear I am wearing, nor does he like my choice in guns, all my ideas, and etc are being shot down. I get a room in the Guild SH, we had it decorated the way I wanted, more so the way he wanted, then he’d take it all down, and do something different, and ask my opinion on it. I’d tell him I liked it but in reality, I just didn’t care in all honesty. This last time though after busting his tail to get those new Asylum Tanks and Toxic barrels, and placing them in the lab which he moved from a small room to one of the larger rooms before hitting the balconies on the last floor, the lab was set up and I loved it, even said so. But because I logged early one night and he was in by himself, he removed everything and put it back in a smaller room and made it look more like a room to his desire. Then asked me “How do you like your new lab?” , again I told him I liked it.  Always trying to change my character it seems to fit in with his idea for a guild RP , which to be honest, not a lot want to do anymore, or they want well established guilds, and you know what, there is nothing wrong with that. Since Bioware removed the RP for a lot of servers, new players do not really know which server is RP and which isn’t anymore. So yeah that makes recruitment hard, but also it shouldn’t hinder people who do wanna RP either, but lastly it does anymore. Then again, I get to break it to him now that I no longer care about RP, I just wanna have fun playing the game in groups and having fun in general. Which will probably prompt me to be kicked out of the guild, and if that happens , then so be it. I keep trying. If not on Ebon Hawk, well then I move that legacy to another server with a lot more of my unlocks.

Then he’s going on and on about character cards, then complaining about the new Mandalorian Guilds popping up, and thinking its because of Mandalorian Gladiators is the reason for the new guilds. I honestly don’t think so, and no sense in trying to tell him that. I understand being a team player means well PVP/SF/FPs, and etc. But not everyone wants to do just those 3 things all the time. I can’t do more then a daily set of PVP, and SF well it’s a time killer, and good for CXP when it’s on the bonus days, but Black Talon FP????? Sorry I do it when I’m leveling up a new character for the XP before hitting Drumond Kaas but that is it. I don’t run it like I did when those deco drops were around. I ran it 11 times to get the Black Talon Deco drop. But since Deco drops have been nerfed so hard in FPs and such, I just don’t bother really running them unless I decide to farm for speeders to give away to players that are asking for them, because that is just how I am as a person. I have done that with stuff I have gotten from cartel packs and etc. that just doesn’t sale that well on the GTN, and new players are always  the most welcomed because they can’t afford the gear right away, or they take it and sale it on the GTN themselves, to earn some credits. Whatever they do with them once I do with them, I don’t really care. I try to be a nice and helpful person, and sometimes it works. Other times it just doesn’t. I won’t be judgmental, I am who I am, and I won’t change for anyone.

PVP,Group stuff, Over all fun in SWTOR finally!!

So yesterday I did the daily bonus for Galactic Command, and it was PVP, so our GM, our newest recruit and a friend of theirs joined us in a group, and we Que for PVP, now mind you I always said in the past that I wouldn’t be doing anymore PVP, but well things change, and I changed. I am getting into group content now. On days that Flashpoints are the Bonus, we run Black Talon a lot for our GMs one alt, he’s trying to achieve a higher social level and I’m all for that, so we run solo mode with those Jesus (Or God) Droids as they are called, which kind of lets me do some DPS damage, not much but some. But I do cleanse us both a lot. So now I am also Level 71 or 72 in Galactic Command now as well, and I have all 7 pieces of gear, most dropped from the Crates, but the last two pieces I was able to get with Unassembled Components and Command Tokens, which were the Boots and Body Armor, now mind you I am not really into the look for the gear, so I let it sit out, while I use the outfit Designer, and I plan on showing off some of the outfits Krumar Ordo wears in game. I have really changed this year, and I’m enjoying this side of SWTOR finally.

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This is something new for me, and I’m really finally enjoying it. Just like I did not think I would honestly love playing a healer spec, but I do. It’s something different for me, and now it has me wondering about trying my hand at tanking one day in the future as well. As you can see in the image up at the very top of this post. I did amazingly well as a healer in PVP, which to my surprise earned me a few MVP’s. I did manage to make some kills, only had one death myself as they ganged up on me and our GM and friends couldn’t peel them off me fast enough. Man they really do not like healers in PVP, and I can’t much blame them either. We do have a thing for trying to keep everyone alive in the matches. But yeah I’ve finally found a place in SWTOR where I’m comfortable, able to be myself and have fun doing so. No one has an issue with me being a woman that plays male characters. That makes it all more worth it to be honest. I won’t lie and say I didn’t know how I would be taken once I told the truth. But I won’t deny the fact that I am a female that games, and I enjoy the male voice actors more so on some characters then others. We even had a few death matches were we won all because I kept or at least tried to keep everyone alive, and we were able to win the matches and that made them really proud of me. Course I also had Blade sitting here cheering me on as well, even though he was quiet until after the matches so he didn’t break my concentration on keeping us all alive.  He’s being super supportive in all this as well. He was afraid that I would drop subscription and uninstall the game, but now that he’s seeing me doing other things, he’s proud of me for keeping at it. I know there are a lot of bad people in the game, but there are a lot of good people as well. I’ve noticed as well that sometimes it is not really the big guilds that will fit a person, but ones that are rebuilding, and are small are usually the best ones, especially for someone like me who has anxiety disorders. While I still do things as a solo player as well, but mostly I’m craving for group content now. I finally understand what everyone was saying in the past about being a team player, while yes SWTOR has a lot of solo content mainly the personal stories and etc, but it’s nice to group up, and go kick some arses from time to time too.

So also while doing some solo things, I leveled up my Nexu who I call “Shock” to influence level 50 and man let me tell you, he is a walking tank now, course that is the spec I put him in, all because with me being a healer, I needed to keep him alive while taking on the baddies in solo stuff from time to time, so that left me with another idea to level up another Cartel Companion so I opted to start leveling up my Mawvorr and get him up to level 50 and him I decided to name “Shadowstalker” I am even developing a story on how I acquired these beasts. Which will make for an interesting read once I am doing developing it. I am over all having fun now whether it be solo or in a group. Course next up for me is to get Bowdaar as a companion, but I am going to see if I can get some help for it since Chomper likes to chomp on me a lot. Course it may be different now that I’m in 230 gear, well minus the mods in my guns, which I need to upgrade soon to purple 230’s.

 

 

PVP is actually fun

So over the last few days I have been doing a lot of PVP on Trayvae recently and it’s because I wanted to get Pierce from the alliance log, and into my current companions, and today I got him finally. I would have never attempted to PVP in the past on Trayvae all because I was fearful of it, but over the last few days I decided to try it. I’ve had a ton of fun doing it too. I’ve listened to the more experienced players and took their advice, and they tried their best to keep me alive, but today I went in with a different kind of mood, and teamed up nicely with a few snipers, and we kicked some major ass doing it so too. Which was kind of ironic because they couldn’t attack both of us at the same time, well they tried, but we had some Assassins that would stealth in, and help us while a healer kept us alive. We talked for a few moments on the Fleet before I logged off, and I told them it may not be an everyday thing, but I have been enjoying myself, and listening to their key advice, plus I told them I have watched a ton of Videos on Youtube about various Warzones and etc. I’m learning more about my Sniper and etc. They told me I was doing a good job and were happy to have me on their team.

I started this after I got the latest patch installed , and I went from Valor 16 to 21 in a matter of a few matches. I am proud of myself for this, because I am finally not to shy about going into PVP anymore on Trayvae. I doubt I will ever have old PVP gear since I was to afraid to go into the PVP realms in the past, but that is long gone now. I may start a new character and go through PVP that way, to see how the Lowbies, and Mids compare to how the max level is. I want to start having fun, and I want to start learning new things, so I am taking this year to learn some new things about PVP and grouping up for things finally. I know there will always be toxic players, but when I’m honest with them, and explain to them that I haven’t done some things, I’m starting to see a lot more are easier to get along with, and are very helpful as well. They are wanting people like myself in PVP now, and have no issues staying teamed up with a noob like me. But yeah I’m having fun now in PVP and I’m glad that I got over that hump and started to do some end game stuff, I think next up with be doing some things in Group Finder, I want to try the uprisings, as well, so I’m take things slow, and explain to them  that I’m new, and I want to learn. I mean after all what’s really the point of me being in an MMO now if I don’t break my walls and learn to play the game even more.

Changes and Challenges

How I am starting something new

I know I said in the past that I would never step foot into the PVP Realm again in SWTOR all cause of the toxic players, but guess what, I spent my day yesterday playing on two different characters at higher levels playing PVP, first up was Trayvae, and I was looking in my Companion Contact list and one thing kept annoying me. I am the type of person that wants the List to stop that damn gold flashy thing in the menu bar that sits at the top of my screen. I’m sure we all know how that feels, and secondly I wanted to use the flags and stuff I had collected on new toons that I have created since they gated the Republic and Imperial Banners behind having Valor for start SH decos, which doesn’t make much sense since most don’t PVP at early levels or if they do, whatever. I am a Decoration addict. There I admitted it, I have no shame in it. Plus this also helps me learn things about myself, grouping up, working as a team, and making some friends. While most that are doing PVP now is to grind for new gear since the unassembled pieces need are locked to PVP only, and that’s cool with me. But I also wanted to get Peirce on my Sniper, just something about having him hanging out with a Sniper sounded more cool than having him on my Warrior. Then after awhile I decided okay well I need to get my smuggler to level 70 and to grind that out in PVE is just soooo damn brutal and slow, so I opted to take my Charming Outlaw Jordelli into the realm of PVP as well to get 4x on the roster as well, and guess what, I explained to everyone that was yelling at all the CXP farmers that no one was there to honestly play, that is when I said. Actually I’m here for the challenge of learning PVP at a higher level, so that I’m not afraid to play it anymore. It shocked everyone on both my Imp team, and when I said it on my Pub team, they were like, wow, didn’t think anyone would want to play for the sake of playing. I said, well I’m not all that fast, nor that experienced in PVP, but if Bioware is making it worth while to group up for somethings, I’ll welcome the challenge any day of the week, and plus if you experienced PVPers have any suggestions on helping me out, I’m all ears. With that said, they told me where I’d be best suited and mostly it was Guarding nodes, or what have you, and when I was using Tray, they had me in positions to snipe people and were amazed that I had that an eagerness to listen or read what they were typing to me. I told them only way people will ever learn is by reading, watching videos, and etc., and that I was sick and tired of living vicariously through others during their PVP adventures on YouTube and what not, and they laughed because they could understand how I was so unaware of going into PVP with all the toxic attitudes and what not, but the people I met up in unranked solo were understanding, and happy that I wasn’t there for CXP grind only.

Plus I just have this thing now about the personal conquest objects now that I know I can do it. Plus some had helpful advice on the guild I am in once the match was over, or we were in between objects waiting for next round. I told them about how I also checked and seen that the old GM also let his sub lapse and now that I am the only qualified account. They agreed that I should keep the Guild since I am one of the last founding founders of it. They said it would be more helpful if I went to starter planets like Hutta and Korriban and try recruiting there. I also told them that instead of a heavy RP guild, I wanted it to be like a safe haven for those that are learning the game, and want to join an social aspect of it, and they agreed that a lot are just unsure how to function in a guild, and I also told them it would be for those that are having a hard time with the game in general, and or a mental health for MMOs as well, and they thought it would be a wonderful idea to have a guild for that kind of thing.

So for the time being, these are the two that I will be PVPing with until I decide to jump in with someone else, something else to do, since I am willing to learn and play and  try my hand at all things in the game now. Next will be probably SM Operations, and what not.

Trayvae The Manipulator LvL 70 Sniper:Engineering, Guild Master to Elite Imperial Vanguard

The Outlaw Jordelli -Scoundrel:Ruffian LvL 70, Kicks ass and takes names for later, and always looking for the easy payday!!